I know we are supposed to do this and do it now. So, I needed to keep following my husband and trust my God. We purposed to keep walking one day at a time.
To let you know where I was in my preparation;
I had wanted to make some cloth diapers for our girl because fitted cloth diapers and covers are very expensive. I talked with a friend about a little sewing party where I would get the fabric and pattern and pre cut and we could all sew. (I know, most of you are thinking, "you call that fun?", but I do). Then I thought "I don't even have the money for the fabric but nice try".
I had also been realizing that I was bringing home a very fragile child with lots of needs to an area I had only recently moved to and didn't know any medical resources.
I had read an article in an adoption magazine one morning about a family who had started finding dimes on the sidewalk throughout their adoption journey and they realized the blessing of little signs that God was providing all that they would need. He did and then for another one where a dime again became a sign needed for a changed heart.
I thought that was sweet and went about my day. The next day, I drove to the grocery store with my daughter and as I got out of the car, there was a dime at my feet. I know, coincidence. But no, it could have been a penny or a nickel but it was a dime and I have a Father who knew that it would get my attention and let me know that He was aware of my discouragement and was providing.
Later that same day, I was checking my homeschool facebook group and saw a post from a homeschool mom for...not just cloth diapers but the cut out pieces for several along with several finished ones. My eyes filled with tears and I thought "that is not coincidence!" I could have found an ad for cloth diapers and I would have thought that was great but here was a mom giving away these and they were ready for sewing, gratis!
I was thanking God for His provision and communicated with this homeschool mom about the diapers. I assumed that she was a mom of a baby/toddler that had outgrown the diapers or she had decided not to cloth diaper after all. When we started talking and she asked questions about my "baby's" size and age, it came out that she is a mom to 2 disabled children and involved in 2 support groups within a mile of our house for both cerebral palsy and tube fed children, 2 of our little one's conditions!
That was it! I bowed my heart and thanked God for His care for her and for us and for His encouragement to keep going forward and trusting His timing and His provision. He showed me in that day that He did have adoption of a little one for us, He would provide for all of our needs, He saw my heart and loves to give good gifts and it WAS her He had for us. Those support groups and that connection were because He has us bringing THIS little girl into our family. His mercy for us all is so great!