As we plan to fly on Friday to the Ukraine, we were informed late today that our little girl is in the ICU and not doing very well. I wonder if she knew we were on the way, would she would want to live. Not that her life has been delightful living as she has been.
We are told that she is on strong antibiotics and has a weak heart. It didn't sound good from a human perspective.
I am torn. I want her to be free, well and whole and see Jesus face to face. But now I find I love her and am not as willing to let her go as I would have been when I first knew of her. I realize that God loves her more than I do, more than Gord does. Whatever He has planned for her little life and for ours is what we want. It will be perfect, it will be glorious. But it will hurt. This sinful, fallen world brings hurt here but Jesus has set us free from the law of sin and death and it will not hurt forever.
In my flesh, I want her to know the love of a mommy and daddy here on earth. And now, we want to be them.
But we want what the One who first loved us wants, more. Your will be done, Lord.
We are told that she is on strong antibiotics and has a weak heart. It didn't sound good from a human perspective.
I am torn. I want her to be free, well and whole and see Jesus face to face. But now I find I love her and am not as willing to let her go as I would have been when I first knew of her. I realize that God loves her more than I do, more than Gord does. Whatever He has planned for her little life and for ours is what we want. It will be perfect, it will be glorious. But it will hurt. This sinful, fallen world brings hurt here but Jesus has set us free from the law of sin and death and it will not hurt forever.
In my flesh, I want her to know the love of a mommy and daddy here on earth. And now, we want to be them.
But we want what the One who first loved us wants, more. Your will be done, Lord.